I’m a woman, in my 20’s and am from the American Midwest. I’m also currently in college and am going into the medical field. I’m a feminist, a scientist, a musician, a swing dancer, a dreamer, and a million other irrelevant things.
Oh yeah, and I’m a survivor of multiple sexual assaults.
So why am I making this blog? To be honest, I’m not entirely sure yet. I already have a journal. Maybe this’ll be a good way to organize my thoughts in one spot. Or better yet, maybe it can help you recover, help you help someone who is recovering, or allow you to better understand what life is like as a survivor.
Here goes nothing.
My Not-So-Brief Story (TLDR version at the bottom)
Trigger warning: descriptions of sexual assault.
Turning eighteen felt pretty good, as it does for most people. For me, it meant celebrating my biggest accomplishment to date: overcoming the depression brought on by my parents’ divorce which began the previous year. It meant starting a new life with my mom after watching her being verbally abused ever since I can remember. It was a time of growth for both of us.
It was also a time of fear. I was afraid my depression would come back. I was afraid that I would repeat my parents’ mistakes by either becoming my father or marrying someone like him. Mostly it was a time of determination, because I was doing everything in my power to make sure those fears wouldn’t become a reality even though the odds were against me in both respects. Because of my parents, I learned that respect is the most important thing in a relationship. I knew that because of what I saw my parents go through, I would demand respect in every relationship and show them the door if that didn’t happen.
Well… that didn’t quite go the way I planned. Continue reading My Background and Story
As you probably know, someone started a trend where people post “Me too” if they’ve experienced sexual harassment or assault. It’s not a perfect campaign, but I’m glad it happened anyway.
Why? Because it finally gave me an easy way to out myself as a survivor! Continue reading I Finally “Came Out” as a Sexual Assault Survivor!
Trigger warning: Mentions of sexual assault
Most of you probably know by now that a lot of people are reposting the following:
On my Facebook feed, countless people have come forward for the first time. Some just keep it simple by quoting the above text, some tell their stories and some give constructive criticism about the trend.
Some people feel it isn’t enough — that it won’t change anything because people already know it’s a problem. Continue reading “Me Too” is Flawed, But I’m so Glad It’s Happening
I’ve made large strides in my healing process since it started around five years ago. It’s been full of ups and downs, but five main things have helped me to get where I am today — a place that I’m pretty content with. I hope these strategies might help you too, if you’re a fellow survivor. Continue reading My Five Most Helpful Strategies for Healing from Sexual Assault
Trigger warning: child abuse (and brief mentions of domestic abuse, elder abuse and animal abuse)
If I hit my boyfriend right now, it would be completely rational to call the police.
If I hit my grandma right now, it would be completely rational to call the police.
If I hit a dog right now, it would be completely rational to call the police.
If I had a child and spanked them, a lot of people would shrug and do nothing. Continue reading Why is Spanking Children Still Legal?
It’s been five months since I’ve had what’d I’d call a disruptive “PTSD” episode. Five months since an episode has thrown me off for more than a few seconds. I don’t understand. What’s going on!?!? This is blowing my mind! I literally never thought this would happen. I never dared hope that I’d arrive at a place where I could be mostly free from the shackles of almost-mental illness.
Continue reading An Unexpected Vacation from PTSD